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That your sister did not experience what you did does not entitle her to expect your assistance in his care.
If you have a good relationship with your sister, you can tell her you're willing to help HER with things she might need, as long as you don't have to be in contact with your dad. If she can't understand your feelings, there's not much more that you can do, other than to try and keep the lines of communication open with her.
Your mental health matters, and trying to bury the feelings about your dad will cause you nothing but pain. I hope you can reach a resolution with your sister that will work for both of you.
You can support your sister. If she wants it and if you want to give the support.
You can help her or her family while she is helping your father.
You do not have to explain, you do not have to rehash what he did just tell her that you can not care for him personally.
If she or anyone else in the family "doesn't get it" there is no need to explain your decision.
Do not let the feeling of guilt make you do something that will be harmful to your mental health.
I am sorry you were abused by your father. No-one deserves the wrath of someone else's wounds and sickness. Your little sisters experience is much different and its okay for her to have a relationship with her father. Your experience is very different and its okay for you NOT to have a relationship with your father.
She wants you to forgive and forget abuse, yet she won't accept that you can not continue to be abused by this man, so she isn't forgiving you for her having to take care of him. Maybe she is more like him than you know.
You are correct in keeping yourself away from the abuser, regardless of what he is to you.
If this is all very recent (yesterday?), just wait. It’s an upsetting time for everyone, including your sisters. If you are clear about being willing to provide finances, you will all work out in time who can do what. But be careful about finances – care is very expensive, and your dear daddy should have made his own preparations for it.
You didn’t dump all the caregiving on your siblings. If they chose to do it, that’s on them. You had every right to walk away. And I’d say your dad did the dumping by failing to plan for old age. You’ve done more than a lot of siblings have done by offering financial support. I agree, your sister needs to practice what she preaches and forgive & forget!
are you totally cut off from all the siblings? What is stopping you from reaching out to them? Your youngest sister, it seems she thinks she’s calling the shots? Don’t let her drive a wedge between everyone.
Your sister chose her role as 'caregiver'. Although I had not realized she was 4 hours away....I assumed she was doing hands on care so this does change things. Even if he was Father of the Year you are not obligated to provide care for him. What exactly is she expecting you to do? Do you live close by and she wants you to visit?
Has she seen a picture of you when you had that bruise your father gave you? Did you explain in GRAPHIC detail the abuse you suffered? Have you asked her why three of his five children want nothing to do with him? Would she be ok if her husband beat on one of her kids...would she expect them to forgive and forget? Has your father told her he is remorseful for the way he treated you?
I think you need one last letter to your sister outlining everything. Tell her you are sorry she can't understand the impact your father had on you and that you have to stay away for your well being. You don't want this to affect your relationship with her but if it does, so be it. Then it is time to distance yourself from her.
When I got divorced I was very honest with my children about why. They still loved their father as they should but I needed them to understand why I did not. Son got it, but daughter didn't and was angry at times over that. I did not try to influence her feelings towards him...basically we agree to disagree. When she was 16 she came to me and said "I apologize...I now see what you saw". Some people will not believe until they see it for themselves.
My suggestion to you is not be his caregiver because it can trigger both you and him. The best thing to do is for the ones he did not abuse is to help out and look into Medicaid and reach out to a social worker to find help caring since they won't be overwhelmed by not having any help. There is no reason to be guilty because you stood up for yourself and it would be better than causing the emotional distress of helping your father and he would be able to sense it. My family found a live in caregiver for cheap on Facebook group.
Maybe you can do the shopping for the groceries. There are free resources for the elderly meals on wheels, rides takes them to their appoints, senior center activities. I wished I could have used those resources when I was caregiver because they thought I should do it by myself
They are in no way that they are obligated to do more than they can handle. They know their limit
Tell them. There are many resources they can use. I don't know if he qualifies for Medicaid but it will pay for it. If not, look up resources for elderly in your area
It seems to me you're doing what is required and no guilt is necessary.
will get the message if you say the same words enough times in a calm voice
Your father doesn’t want you there, it’s a constant reminder of his failure,
his inability as a father to protect
his child
dont feel any guilt, for protecting yourself , you have been doing that
your whole life in one way or another because you survived
Just try to forgive him and know that he died a long time ago
i hope you find the peace and strength to do what is best
Lists of harm in many many ways that I have zero regard toward him or for that matter the entire unchosen "family". I would live for the day to be in a financial position with a roof over my head to turn my back and keep walking.
I feel you have the strength and clarity to sit very comfortably in your actions and decisions. Some things are too horrific & changes made for a very good reason. You only have one life. If you achieve independence from continual trauma, then the way forward with self peace and quality of life is paramount. Take good care.
Then there is the outrage you feel when you are supposed to step up and help them and others expect ypu to. You feel a bit like a betrayer of your younger self and there is an inner fight. I think it doesn't help that ' healthy" is seen as not bearing grudges - where as, it is perfectly natural to dislike someone who abused you and quite despicable that you were a helpless child.
Try to see your siblings as misguided or possibly even callous and stand firm. Good luck! You have my best wishes, it is not easy. xx
You can tell her your therapist (you can fib if you want) said you have a right to not be in his presence but you can help in other ways. Run errands, buy things, maybe take her meals etc. One thing my sisters did for me which I appreciated greatly, was they told me how much they appreciated what I was doing, would buy massages for me and things like that.
No idea what his after care will be like, but do what you can to prevent her burnout.
However.
Your dad is now facing death, and I believe that everyone -- EVERYONE -- deserves some peace of mind at the end of life.
You are stronger than he is now. For the short time he has left, you can safely stop protecting yourself and, instead, choose to reconnect with him and give him the kindness he failed to show you.
Why should you do this for someone you feel no love for? Because all bets are off when somebody's dying. Because this is your last chance to lay down the burden of anger and express, to him and to your siblings, the very best of yourself -- the person big enough to forgive, and to show, if not love, at least the fundamental human compassion you would feel for anyone in extremis.
Your father may not be capable of responding; it may not mean anything to him that you show up at his bedside and lend some moral support. But YOU will always know you did it, and though that may not seem important to you now, I promise that it will give you great comfort as you grow older.
The power of forgiveness is a cliché because it's so REAL. I hope you will find it in your heart to let go of, or at least conceal, your anger long enough to visit your father, be there with your siblings, and restore your family connections. I am not discounting your pain; I'm saying that I believe the pain will be greater, for all of you, if you don't take this step to affirm that you are still a family, and forgiveness is possible.
All good wishes.
What I can't understand is their being upset that you refuse to share the work of active care. In that case, surely the best answer to your siblings, particularly those who were equally victimised, is to recommend strongly to them that they follow your example.
This is only curiosity, don't answer if it makes you feel worse: what was the difference between the first three children and the two youngest? Why the contrast in his approach, do you think?
That all being said, I did get some counselling to put things into perspective about my parents. The abuse over a childhood should never have happened. Since my parents both are mentally competent, they are responsible for their decisions and their lives. If my dad becomes mentally incompetent and the state calls, I will have them put him in a home on Medicaid. When my mom becomes mentally incompetent, I will make sure she is cared for. As their adult child, I do not have to do the "hands on caring" but I am responsible to make sure they are cared for. It would be nice if both my sisters were part of this, but they have made their own decisions on the extent of care they wish to provide. I don't blame them.
While this is now easy for me to say (it has been 5 years), I pray that you can find peace in a positive future.