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And what a COMFORT they are in the pain of our lives, daily, no matter what we are going through. To reach out and feel them in the night. By us. Such a connection.
My two beloved elder girl dogs passed 5 years ago. I can see them still in my heart, in my mind, and their collars hang in the room; I am so much closer to adding another to them. I am fine usually, can see pictures of them wading in the water and feel so good. Other days the pain just flummoxes me.
We do rescue work, and we foster dogs, then place in a new home. Whatever dog is doing poorly in shelter comes into the Rescue and we place them one at a time. One named Soldier just left for his forever home yesterday, and even that is another loss. Saw him through eye surgery, saw him made whole. And now he is gone.
So my sympathies on the loss of the pet that sustained you. There is nothing on earth I sometimes thing that sustains us so much.
Now there is Dad, and being humans, that loss is so much more complex. And it IS painful. How lucky you are to know, to recognize, that he was just another flawed human. You needed a perfect Saint; you were dependent on your parent--and he was just another flawed human. But he is YOUR DAD, and he doesn't deserve to fade in this manner. And your message says you recognize that.
So no, you are right where you are, and there is no way to do this more perfectly. How I wish you had that fur-person to help you through. Keep on keeping on. And when this is over consider paying all that love forward to another animal in need--there are so many. Clearly you are a special person who feels it all. While that hurts, I still think you are the lucky one. Just keep telling yourself that you are the lucky one, to feel so much love.
My heart goes out to you. Wishing you luck. Hoping you will update us.
Thank you for understanding the depth of mourning I feel for my dog. I know there is real suffering and loss on this forum and I was hesitant to mention a pet's death. His death brought me to my knees.
I feel so much guilt because the past 18 months have been so difficult caring for my parents and he received the bare minimum attention from me and I was often short tempered with him. He has seen me through some dark periods in my life and he deserved better by me. I'm not sure I will ever get over his death.
And my father. Without empathy for my parents I think I would ruin the rest of my life drowning in resentment. They loved me imperfectly and I will work on acceptance .
Thank you for saying I am the lucky one. It's a beautiful perspective. I was reading something about the loss of a beloved pet and it said, "they only thing they can leave to you is love". So if I can focus on the love that I've had, maybe I can get through this.
You're so kind.
I am so sorry for all the loss you're suffering right now and hope my comment gives you a tiny bit of help.
As far as your father is concerned, I wonder if now would be a good time to ask about him, his life, his family history. Tell him you want to understand what "makes him tick" before you have to say goodbye. Some older folks just love talking about their lives - their childhood, college days, military service, early parenthood, but often no one wants to listen. Does he like music? If so, sing with him some songs he used to listen to or play them for him. Does he like sports? Watch a ball game on TV with him and ask him about live games he went to or days when he played a sport. These things can often loosen an old person's tongue and they'll share random stories with you that you will never forget. If you have children, tell him you want to pass some memories and tales about him down to the kids to remember him by. Many bookstores carry family books with places to include pictures and memories. He might like the idea of filling one for you and your family.
Sometimes I don't think I'm going to make it through this and it's comforting to know there is kindness and support available on this forum.
Unfortunately we are quite new to this area so don't know many people and my parents aren't too keen on having unfamiliar faces in the house. However, hospice said maybe a volunteer will eventually be found that will visit regularly and they could get used to them giving me some down time. We'll see.
I will even confess that I mourned my dog more than many folks I’ve known.
I too wish you had your fur baby with you now to help you through.
I lost my baby in June 2017 & I miss him every.day. Some folks say get another dog quickly. I have not yet been ready to replace him.
I suggest you focus on your dad now during this additionally emotional time. You are coping with two personal disasters. But you will make it through.
Most of all take care of you. Stress is a terrible syndrome that will turn your body inside out and make your mind go warbly. Pay attention to your needs & don’t forget the basics -like rest and hydration.
Maybe in a few months you will be ready for some pure happiness which could be a new pup (or not). This will be up to you as time passes. I suggest you slow down, mourn your dog and spend as much time as you need to with your ill father. Talk with him. Be with him.
One thing at a time. Your baby is over the “Rainbow Bridge” - he is whole, wild & free.
I truly dearly hope there is a doggie heaven and they are all there waiting for us.
You are right, I need to focus on one thing at a time. I guess one day at a time. Week to week things seem to shift so I need to learn to adjust as I go.
You're so kind, much love to you.
One of the ways that helped when my FIL passed away is that we got pics with him a couple of weeks before he passed away. I treasure those pics of him with each of us as well as the group of us together.
When he was in hospice, I took my boys to see him. They had written down questions for him (favorite job? favorite candy bar? etc.) He enjoyed talking with them and sharing some memories. I with I had had the forethought to make a video of that visit. I miss hearing his voice.
I hope that you have peace as you face the loss of your father knowing that you are a kind, loving, and supportive daughter.
I wish I had peace and hope someday I can look back and feel I did the best I could. But most days I think I fall far short of the ideal, but I suppose that is part and parcel of being a caregiver. I just don't seem to have enough time or patience to go around. Thank you so much for your support, it's so appreciated.
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The wisdom in your video(s) certainly holds true. The other evening my father was very weak and confused and I was putting him to bed. He gave me a hug and said "what would I do without you?" I replied that it's okay, not to worry, that I loved him and that he's been a good father. We've had many negative interactions over the years, but I don't want him dwelling on that. I want him to go in peace and just having said those few words I have felt so much better. I'm not sure if he remembers what I've said, and I hope to get the chance to repeat them, but it was very healing.
Thank you for sharing all those videos, they are a valuable source of much needed support and information.