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Morphine is certainly not NEEDED to die in my humble opinion.
Many people die quite suddenly, no time or need for medication. Many others slip away slowly but without apparent distress.
I work in heathcare & have witnessed many deaths. There have been some deaths I remember where medication seemed a blessing to ease their suffering (eg air hunger with severe lung disease, liver cancer pain).
The 'death rattle' breathing sound can upset some people, just as other groans & bodily noises can. However, this does not mean they are painfull to the person.
Many simply have longer & longer pauses between their breathes, then stop breathing. Often in the small hours of the night or just before dawn, when the world seems the quietiest. It can be very peaceful.
I would try to speak through your experience with an experienced Hospice Nurse. Not everyone needs Hospice services. If so, if things move quickly at the end stage, that in itself can be a blessing.
A long life & a quick end. Sounds like what is called A Good Death to me.
The fact that he showed no signs of either tells me that his death was peaceful and quick and for that you should be grateful.
My late husband was under hospice care and he suffered in great pain and with labored breathing even being on oxygen right up until the end, and yes it showed.
And yes it was horrific to witness.
So I am glad that you were spared that horrific end to your fathers life, and that he instead died in peace. And he would not want you second guessing anything you did or didn't do, as he knew that you did the very best you could and that he was able to die at home which I'm sure is what he wanted.
Please seek out some grief counseling now. Grief Share is a free support group that meets in every city throughout the year, so just Google to see where one is by you.
I as a retired RN do not find that to be true at all or in any way.
In fact, suffering shows, as does a struggle. And more often than not what looks like an awful gasping for air, a terrible struggle is not registered by the patient mentally, or is not remembered at all. This is likely because there is little oxygen to the brain and for all intent and purpose that patient is comatose.
We often, in grief, choose not to walk into the grief. Instead we delay entering into this finality of loss by blaming. Usually people blame doctors, nurses, hospitals, rehabs, Hospices. But sometimes, none of those being in any way responsible, they blame themselves.
This was a long life. This life was richly and wholly supported by a devoted loving family. This is about as lucky as it gets. Pneumonia, historically and for centuries has been known as the old person's friend, because it ushers out so many. And because their lives are down to suffering only.
I am sorry there was no hospice support because they would have been very reassuring. Sounds like a mess of stuff falling though the cracks. And Hospice could have administered drugs that would have cut down the APPEARANCE of air hunger. But I would say that all in all, you are face now with grieving. And remember to consider the length of life, the love, the luck--the WHOLE of this life. Be easy on yourself. This wasn't caused by you and couldn't have been fixed by you. Save your strength for the grief of loss. I am so sorry for your loss, but I think your dad was lucky in you all.
I also have learned to ask questions and find sites like this one so I can help others and to what I have experienced and share my info with others.
Know that as I finish this little note I have said a prayer for comfort for you!
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Don't punish yourself, you aren't a Doctor, or experienced with impending death. I was not when my beloved husband died at home, surrounded by loved ones. He struggled those last 45 minutes, and the hospice nurse took me aside, and told me to tell him to let go, so I almost took a swing at her! She said she had been doing this work 20 years, and it was clear he was hanging on for ME, nobody else. She said to stop his suffering and give him permission to let go, to assure him I loved him and I will be OK. To tell him it was breaking my heart to watch him suffer. I never thought I could do it, but I gathered the strength....asked everyone to step back, and whispered it to him as tears rolled. I stepped away to get fresh air, and within 15 seconds, he was gone. The room (with 14 foot vaulted ceilings) glowed as his spirit left his body. Everyone gasped in awe.
I look back 23 years later and still glad I did it. His suffering was unbearable to us both. It was the ultimate show of love by the one he loved the most, his Soul Mate.
You didn't fail your Dad. You were there for him at the end of his long life. Everyone knows it, including God. You showed love, honor and courage. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. It's the hardest thing in life people must do.
Your Dad would be proud.
Hold your head high forever. You are now a woman of true honor. You earned that right with no help from anyone.
My sincere condolences on your loss.