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You don’t live near her and I would consider that a blessing! I would be concerned about her driving as well but how can you possibly stop her? How can you make her do anything at this point? She won’t go see a neurologist. Her brain is broken on so many levels, dementia and mental illness. She’s a walking time bomb waiting to explode. Do you want to be near her when she does explode? I doubt that you do. As Zippy said, “Call APS” if that would ease your mind. Do you feel that you are responsible for her well being?
You have a kind heart but your compassion will get you nowhere. I am sure that you are aware of this but obviously this is eating at you. Why don’t you consider therapy for yourself at this point to help you cope with the emotional struggle that you are experiencing.
You have come to the right place. This forum has people that have been in your shoes or going through a similar situation.
How often do you speak to her? I am a bit confused about your profile in regards to your children. Please do not expect them to get tangled up in this. That isn’t fair to them.
In your heart of hearts what do you desire in life? Don’t allow her to rob you of your joy. You deserve peace and joy in your life. Including your mom in your life will bring nothing but heartache and frustration.
Stick around to get advice from others who have experience in this area. My caregiver days are over. My mom recently died in a hospice house with end stage Parkinson’s disease. She willingly stopped driving. Her dementia was mild and she did not have borderline personality disorder like your mom, so I have not been in your shoes. Others on the forum will help you sort this out and hopefully you can start to place things in a proper perspective.
I feel that you need to heel your emotional wounds from dealing with this situation. I wish you peace as you navigate your way through this difficult time in your life. Take care.
I doubt my mom has a actual diagnosis because "there is nothing wrong". However the last counselor I saw introduced me to narcisstic behaviors and helped me to take responsibility for the things I allowed.
I have been a caregiver for years on and off. I was programmed to always put me aside.
There have been many hard lessons since then. My children are adults. I wrestle with the overly codependent aspect of me, that we need to honor our elders, that she has probably been and all the compassion I feel for the aging process.
I started mindfulness a while back and was introduced to the concept that I also deserve compassion.
My daughter used to ask if I could live with my mom but the last month has brought new insight. She actually said mom and I have a toxic relationship.
My dreams: an apartment or tiny home were I can have peace. Watching my grandbabies grow and contributing to their lives in a positive way. Paying my own way. Health insurance. Growing food. A bit of art or writing. Making a few friends since I moved. Peace. Feeling my heart light up when nature is alive and green or a child makes you laugh or I see kindness or someone has good fortune. Some balanced volunteering. A job that doesn't eat me up. To breathe.
To be able to shrug off her texts when she starts or grey rock them without letting them trigger anxiety.
I have started hanging up when things get crazy. Again shifting to not answering and listening to voice-mail before returning call or may just texting a boring reply. Lol the last time I did she sent texts for three straight hours to my daughter directed at me. What she didn't remember was my daughter had worked with me on these actions.
What I really want is to be able to love and give without setting myself on fire to keep someone warm.
I think participating at sites like these is healing all the way around. It helps to know you are not alone. To remember to say to yourself what you said to someone else.
Thank you for your remarks and reminders. The last 2 weeks I started to get lost. My daughter reminded me about the ants and the grasshopper.
Wishing you Love, Laughter and Life
"25,000 miles away - and... loving it!"
On your profile, you quoted some advice 'to take care of myself or lose myself'. I really like that. I have been told similar. That those with NPD, BPD, SZ or other serious mental illness are not great at boundaries, understanding their own or others 'edges'. 'Losing yourself' in their company makes real sense to me.
Please protect yourself & your children.
*It is what it is* is a statement I like.
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There's nothing else you can do. You've been the lightening rod who took her anger, rage, and frustration. No more. You paid the price for her many years of undiagnosed and untreated mental illness. You took the abuse too. Now you're done. You don't owe her anything.
You know I tell parents all the time to be careful about how they treat their kids. They might need them someday.
Good luck to you and God bless.
The State can take over her care. She will be placed quicker than you can do. Her needs will be met.
After my last call with Mom, she couldn't remember things discussed during the call and I realized that it was the definition of insanity to try to convince someone who is forgetful that they are forgetful.
My children have always known her as a fun adventurer. My daughter has been trying to help with choices as I am conflicted. She has been more on the side of encouraging Mom to move. She was in favor of DMV before me. I feared it might set Mom off or aggravate her mental state.
My daughter wants to go down with her brother and believes they could have better luck if I was not present. My daughter is much more up front about her opinions but I get most of the texts and calls.
Mom has implied that asking DMV actions are illegal. We were advised that DMV, APS, and writing a letter to her doctor (knowing that HIPPA prevents an answer) were acceptable answers. We have not sent it because recently she stated she gave permission for my daughter to share information. We told people they need to call themselves DMV/APS. I have kept notes in timeline form and we are keeping texts for the month of June (originally to figure out what she was doing).
The latest text today implied we where doing something illegal. There have been statements about suing 2 other people.
Mentally, I know my daughter is probably right that I will be an irritant. I have reviewed what sort of documents and records we would need to assist and not have a break in services IF she were to come.
At this point, I am standing back. The more encouragement or questions I ask the worse it gets. To the point of being surreal. We have gone from: "I need help" to "everything is fine" to "these things never happened" to "back off".
Due diligence has been done. And it seems like the attention has served as fuel.
She is now 81, lives in a house she does not own and refuses to move. May be in the process of eviction. She has dementia and it has come to my attention she has bugs in her hair, ripped clothes, and throws trash in the yard. She removes piles of dog poop from the home with her bare hands. I have tried to get her into a clean apt. or other rental home, to no avail. No one has POA or guardianship concerning her, so we have all backed off (brother, nephew, cousin and myself).
The legal system and social services will takeover from here on out. The woman is an evil, evil being, and sometimes it seems as if she is not alive in the house, but some kind of demonic presence. There are stinging black flies swarming the porch areas to the home, the house is in a state of collapse, and the stench is unbearable.
My advice to you is run from the situation and DO NOT LOOK BACK.