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My doctor has said I probably have PTSD., too. I live in a small town and there are NO counselors who take my insurance. My hospice aftercare wasn’t helpful. No real complaint, it just wasn’t a good match. The county outfit is unfit for service. I have a support system, but this situation is above their pay grade.
Last week I started volunteering as a docent for a Native American museum. Distraction is a good thing.
I will take your advise and try to replace the good with the bad.
I am so glad you shared your story
Thanks,
Karen
My husband had a supra pubic catheter, which made things a little easier for me, but I did have to hire an aide to come put him on the bedside commode every morning so he could poop.
During the 22 months my husband started having more and more pain which hospice had a hard time controlling. On Aug. 5th 2020, I knew something was very wrong when I tried to wake my husband for breakfast, and when the hospice nurse arrived I was told that my husband would be dead in 3 days as he was in a partial coma.
Well the 3 days came and went and he was still alive and didn't end up dying until Sept. 14th 2020. He went 41 days without eating(hospice said that he broke their record)and about 25 days without any fluids other than his fentanyl pain pump. He suffered greatly and hospice couldn't get him comfortable. They wanted me to let them take him to their hospice home where they could administer stronger medications(that they're not allowed to give in an in-home setting)so he wouldn't suffer so, but prior to my husband going into complete unconsciousness 2 weeks before he actually died, I had asked him if he wanted to go and he said no.
So I honored his wishes like you did your husbands too to die at home. It was horrific to watch him wither away after not eating for so long and the noises he made were none I had ever heard before. I was traumatized for quite a while after that and honestly believe that I had suffered PTSD.
It's now been over a year and a half since my husband died, and now when that visual tries to sneak into my brain, I am able to stop it and replace it with a happier visual of him. It took time to be able to do that. It sure didn't happen overnight, so give yourself some time, and try instead to remember happier times with him.
I hope that you're seeking some kind of grief counseling to help you through this.
I'm so sorry that you too had to go through such a traumatic experience with your husbands passing. I pray that it time this too shall pass.
The care I gave him and watching him being awake and starving is seared in my brain. I can not eat properly, and have lost 45 pounds. Every bite of food is a protest against Kent’s last 28 days.
I near you when you say the memories will ebb and flow. It is just that I do not see a path to it.
I'm so sorry you experienced this and I understand what you are feeling. My mother was disconnected from all medication, fluids, any life saving measures and lingered for seven days. It was called Comfort care which is ironic cause comforted was the last thing that I felt but I don't as others have said on various threads feel like they murdered my mom or anything equally dramatic sounding. I did understand it was a process that needed to happen. But that didn't stop me from experiencing the horror that you described with your husband.
It does go away. The pictures going through your mind will ebb and flow and eventually disappear altogether. In the meantime feel free to visit the grief forum or stay here and we'll all try to support you as best we can.