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Realistically.
Welcome to the Forum. When you are here a few weeks you will understand that this is the NORM, and will understand it even more quickly if you speak to the administration there.
I cannot know how happy a camper your mom has been throughout her life, but there is little of "happiness" in old age, and I can assure you of that as I am 81. It is more an endurance marathon.
Look at it this way, your mother's life now is all about loss. Start at the head and go to the toes that can't feel much of anything anymore. Thinning hair, hearing loss, balance loss, eyesight failing, skin a mess, hairs growing our of the chin instead of other places where you need it. The cervical spine is compressing and the neck muscles hurt and nerve pain shoot down the arms into the fingers. You cannot multitask. Your appetite is waning and you're sleep more of the time.
I can go down through the systems. But I will spare you as I think you have been a first hand observer.
Your mother is in care now which is where she should be lest she take down the survivors with her. However, every time she sees you she thinks you can/will/should/must save her. So you are the target for every bit of ill will she can muster, and for her right now anger is easier than weeping.
Here's the thing.
You didn't cause all this.
You can't fix this.
You are not and cannot hold yourself responsible for this.
You need to understand that this is GRIEF for you both. Not guilt, but GRIEF pure and simple. Your mom has had her life. I hope it was a good one because it was her one and only chance.
And NOW is your ONE AND ONLY CHANCE.
I always caution grown children not to sacrifice their lives on the burning funeral pyre of their loved one. I am 81. My daughter is 62. This is the most free time of her life when she will not have to work, when her own son is grown, educated, and flown the nest. When it is time for HER and her husband to do their hobbies, to travel. Are they then to give that up and come this awful journey of death and dying with me? Why? So that an application for Sainthood would look good? Because Sainthood is one very bad job description.
You and Mom will have to endure this tough change as best you can.
I welcome you to the Forum. You can help others and perhaps get some few pointers from those of us who were there, are there, will be there.
Good luck.
PS, you can be a daughter or a caregiver. You can't be both. Assuming the mantle of caregiver makes you the decider, the limit setter, the boss who wants someone to get up, get exercise. Caregivers are not your loving daughter. Don't let that happen. Remain the loving daughter who visits, sympathizes, does her best to comfort, and weeps with her loved one.
The reality is that moving is a big adjustment for ANYONE. When people are asked if they have had any major life changes recently - a move is usually one of the options on that list. Even moving from one house to another house in the same town (not changing schools, just houses) was a big change for my daughters when we moved 5 years ago. It took them a lot longer than 21 days to adjust and they were 17 and 19.
What does "not adjusting" look like? Is she trying to escape daily? Or is she just not "happy" and making her feelings known? Because I'm going to be really honest with you - almost no one adjusts to living in senior living to the point of being so content that they never complain and stop talking about going home.
With dementia - she may never fully adjust because from one day to the next she may not remember why she is there.
But here is the key - YOU know. And you said it in your post. "I just couldn't do it alone anymore.". When someone has dementia, and they get to a certain point, it is really beyond your control to be able to take care of them 24 hours a day. You have to focus more on what keeps them safe and less on what keeps them happy.
Because what keeps them happy can change from day to day, but what keeps them safe is going to stay pretty much the same. And you have to focus on what they need over what they want.
Your best bet is to call the nurse to find out how mom is doing. Keep your calls to a minimum for awhile because all you'll hear is accusations instead of anything else. My husband once asked my mother to tell him ONE thing she was grateful for, and for the life of her, she couldn't think of one! She was always a glass half empty type of person, unless she had an audience to play to.
Mom will adjust in time. She's well cared for, fed, safe, has activities and peers to talk to. That's all she needs. Some folks in Memory Care Assisted Living are happy as clams and others are miserable as the day is long. Especially when visitors come by. Don't internalize her words.
Best of luck to you.
Think about a new situation you've been in - A job, a new neighborhood, a cross-country move. Were you happy for the first few months? Even a year?
When we moved from Buffalo to Florida, I couldn't find my way around without GPS.
My "stuff" wasn't in the same place it was, back home.
My workplace was different.
My friends were hundreds of miles away.
I wasn't happy.
Now, I have a wonderful church family, an ADORABLE grandson, and satisfying volunteer work. I can find my way around, and I know where my stuff is. I found my way.
My 25 year old daughter moved here with us - voluntarily. Two weeks after we moved, she sobbed, just missing her old life and old job.
I pushed her to go to Sunday School and to join the worship team at our new church. She finally gave in, and she met the team's drummer, and a year later, married him. She had the above ADORABLE grandson, who is five years old. She has a gaggle of wonderful friends. She found her way.
So? Normal. Transition takes AWHILE.
With our mothers living with dementia, again, their unhappiness becomes OUR unhappiness - cause we let it.
In any normal life transition, we would KNOW that it's hard, and it's normal. NORMAL.
Try the best you can to remember this fact, and let your mom find her way. She will. ◡̈
Best wishes, and we're cheering for you!
thank you
You did not place her as punishment, you were burdened and stressed by caregiving you expected would be easy. You tried a full year, and realized it was a significant burden for you, having no medical experience.
Ask yourself, did your Mom take care of her elderly mother? Move her in with her?
Most elders have the concept "being put in a home" is the worst thing that could happen to them. Having 24/7 care, meals, housekeeping, a safe place and activities is not prison. She is taken care of by professionals who are trained to handle dementia.
You did not cause her to get old and have dementia. At her age, she is aware her life will be ending soon. Of course it is frightening and depressing. She isn't going to be happy. But she is safe and not alone.
I will never expect anyone to caregive me when I reach the end of my life. I will find and move into Assisted Living and enjoy not having to cook, clean and struggle.
You did the right thing, so cry it out and stay strong.
My husband and I moved in with my parents in 2018 . My Dad had Altzheimer’s and Multiple Myeloma and died in 2019 . We didn’t want to leave my Mom and luckily , my husband was ok with that and treats my Mom, who now has Vascular Dimentia and Parkinson’s, so we’ll . The first 3 years were fun . We took her with us on trips - never left her home . But now , it’s more difficult . She is 93. I’m 71 and my husband is 79 . My Mom is very dependent on me . She never wants me out of her sight . I lost my only sibling in 2003 . We ended up selling our home because she couldn’t do stairs and didn’t have a MLM. It is so hard . I’m the bad parent now and my husband is the good one . But , we do not have a life . I love my Mom so much . We were very close - best friends , but being a caregiver and daughter is not good . When I was younger , I stayed in the area where they lived . My sister moved . She loved my parents and it would have been such a comfort to have her here now to help me .But God saw differently . It is difficult finding someone who has a nursing degree to come in and help , to give us a break . I feel guilty leaving her . I have no children to help out either . I’m in a bind 😥
In my humble opinion, you did what you need to do. I completely support your decision. You cannot fix her. She is safe and that is really important. Sometimes we have to accept that we cannot be the answer but we can be part of the solution (I don't mean to be trite). Sometimes we have to make hard decisions. I would not change the decisions I made and I know my parents are safer today then they were living in their home.
Sending you good thoughts.
I am glad you realize this was for the best. You did not "do this to her", her disease did.
You have insured she is in a safe place that meets her needs and is close to family so she can have visitors.
It is not your responsibility to make your mom happy. No one can make someone else happy. When someone is old, sick, and nearing the end of life, there is not much to even BE happy about.
You let her know she is loved and cared for - that is your responsibility, and you are doing it.
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