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Like you, secondarily I am concerned for them and they would not want to go on and on living this life and being so helpless and needy.. they used to be so free and adventurous.. now their life is so limited.
You must be pretty young yourself if your mom is only 70.. I do feel guilty about these thoughts ... but they are valid thoughts to have ....please try to not beat yourself up over this.. as I am sure many others in your situation would be thinking these thoughts as well.
I don't think it makes you bad or selfish.. you are entitled to your own life.. this bit about dealing with dementia and parents for years and years.. would lead most to have these thoughts (I would imagine).
((hugs))
I, too, would like for my mother to pass on before she reaches the point of no quality of life.
Don't feel bad about your thoughts. They are totally normal.
I'm 9 years into assisting my dad in his facility and managing his affairs as an only child. It has consumed so much time and energy that the happy life I had a decade ago is only a distant memory, but I continue to long for the opportunities and choices I once had. Of course, my yearning also comes with feelings of frustration, and even resentment at times.
I've been very much helped by attending an Alzheimer support group and would highly recommend it. I've had a chance to observe and contemplate the thoughts and emotions of many people in our situation and have drawn a few conclusions.
1. Most of us enter this responsibility without previous experience but forge ahead by saying "I'm a good person so, of course, I can do this." Later, you'll have thoughts that have you asking others "Am I a bad person for thinking this?" Hello dementia caregiver! And yes, you're still a good person.
2. We also believe in our resilience and perseverance at the beginning because we are untested. We say "I can do anything for a while." We never imagine "a while" will turn into grueling years of increasing difficulty. It leaves us longing for any period of relief and imagining what living life without swimming in stress hormones might feel like. Hello dementia caregiver! You can expect an odd mix of grief and relief at the end.
3. Lastly, because we are naïve, we also say in the beginning "How hard could it be?" Then we find out it's beyond what we could have ever foreseen but we question ourselves because we struggle with the unimaginable. Hello dementia caregiver! I have yet to meet anyone who can make it to the finish line without engaging with others in some way to fortify themselves mentally, emotionally, and physically with the care challenges.
Perhaps you can see yourself in this evolutionary summary and I hope it reassures you that you're as normal as the rest of us struggling to cope with these difficulties.
As a final suggestion, I'd recommend that you relinquish the tendency to put things in rank order and see your desire to want the end to your mom's suffering and the easing of your own caregiver struggle as equally important outcomes for different but valid reasons.
I'm glad you brought this up because it rings true for so many of us. It's a hard road we travel but we try to ease the way for each other with out support.
From the moment my mom was diagnosed with dementia until the day she died
(4 years and a bit) I will admit that I prayed that she would expire. She NEVER< EVER EVER wanted to live in the condition that she was in.
I was frankly grateful that after 4 long years of slow decline, a fall in her NH sent her into a precipitous decline and I was able to talk my brother, who had Power of Attorney, into signing off on Hospice.
This disease is unbearably painful for all involved. Don't beat yourself up. Please.
And again ((((((hugs)))))))) and vent here all you want.
Have you seen a psychiatrist for your anxiety?
Stop beating yourself up as it is a useless waste of time & energy - do something positive when you start feeling that way even if it only sorting out files - I know because I have been there & it can grind you to a halt if you let it - I felt as long as I am doing my best for then I tried to deflect myself from the 'what if', the 'maybe' and the 'am I doing enough' type of thought - it is easier said than done & I am 69 years old doing this
Please do not beat yourself up for wanting her freed from this living.
h€[[. It only makes you an obviously loving daughter to want her released.
For whatever reason, she is going through this and her family is being drug right along.
Unless you have dealt with someone that has the lights on but there is nobody home, it is hard to understand the desperation you feel for the situation. There is no engaging them in any way, shape or form. There is no communication possible whatsoever, nobody's home. (I am saying this for all the posters that have suggested engagement as a way to cope, sorry guys, no offense intended. It is just not possible, she is a shell.)
Crafty, do only what you can, delegate when possible and be thankful that she is not suffering.
You have been dealing with a heart breaking situation for a long time, to want it to be over is okay and understandable. Be kind and forgiving to yourself.
Hugs for all you do, you are a daughter that any mom would be proud of.
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