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It sounds like some emotional detaching/distancing would help, as does coming here and venting, and gettng ideas from others.
Your mum is not who she was, so you cannot expect the same from her as you did. To let go of those (now) unrealistic expectations, you need to grieve the loss of who she was, to get to the point of accepting who she now is, and adjusting your expectations accordingly. As she declines, and we all do in one way or another, those expectatioms will need to be readjusted. Lowering your expectations to a realistic level can help to lower the stress. Developing techniques, as jeanne mentioned regarding tapping her ears and handing her hub the hearing air box, are great coping skills. I remember years ago with one child who was being particularly difficult, emphasizing to myself that I was the adult here who needed to act maturely, when I was being tempted to respond in kind. Caregiving is an extremely difficult task, and one for which most (none?) of us have been prepared. It is challenging to the extreme. People here have loads of experience and are so willing to share. Pick one thing to work on to improve - right now it all feels so overwhelming, I know. If you can accomplsh one small change that benefits you, it will be an encouragement, and then you can pick another. Some changes cannot happen - the clock cannot be turned back, but improvements can be made, and your quality of life can improve Good luck!
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Joan
About the hearing aids ... I've given up on a lot of my husband's behaviors. They are what they are, and I need to be the one to make adjustments. But the hearing aid issue is one I've held out on. His level of cognition fluctuates, and I've picked his very best days to explain to him that when I have to raise my voice to talk to him that makes it sound as if I'm mad at him, and I only want to sound mad when I really am. He needs to wear his hearing aids to keep our conversations sounding as pleasant as I mean them to be. Learning new things or remembering messages is hard for people with dementia, and I've repeated this many times, all on good days, and all in pretty much the same terms. And now I just don't talk to him unless he wears his hearing aids. If we start a conversation and he has to keep asking what or clearly can't hear me I don't raise my voice. I tap my own ears or hand him the hearing aid box. I don't get mad or frustrated that he forgot to put them in. He has dementia. Forgetting is what they do. But, by golly, once he is reminded he can jolly well put them in! :-D
This approach may or may not work with your mother. If is doesn't, it isn't because you aren't as good of a caregiver as I am ... it's because she isn't as good of a care reciever (on this topic at least) as my husband is!
Since it is a source of frustration for you and that leads to impatience and that leads to self-criticism, I think the hearing aid issue is one worth a lot of effort, even while you let other poor behaviors slide.
Good luck!
Why is it old people pay a lot of money for hearing aids and then won't wear them? My mom was so eager to get them and so upset that she couldn't hear much. Now she has them (her second set over the years) and they sit in a box except for when she goes out (church, with a friend, etc). Meanwhile *I* have to scream and when I ask her to please put them in, she gets grumpy. I get tired of being put in the parental role, even though I know it's not her fault. That's when I wonder why I don't have more patience, because parents certainly have to have that in spades.
I'm hard on myself, I suspect, which is something my mother grew up doing to herself. I wish I didn't want someone to say to me, "What you're doing is great, stop being so hard on yourself" but damn it would feel nice.
There were days I was so depressed and exhausted from all the efforts of patience. My heart goes out to you - venting is good and necessary. Hugs and hugs to you. As Ladee said - take deep breaths and remember this too shall pass.